REVEAL, ACCEPT, & MOVE FORWARD (listening to Spinner.com, GothicChannel) Seems like this past week has been another episode of "sean, this is *your* life!!!". For kicks, let me check the stars to see if it was anticipated...hehe...brb Week of Mar. 4, 2002. ...there has been so much movement in your life of late that it has unsettled you, so you can't go back to being the way you were, but at the same time you don't quite know where you want to be either. Whatever happens, see this as a valuable stepping-stone to achieving more stability and homing in on the deeper desires of your soul. Not too shabby for a bunch of star freaks. Reveal. At every turn this week, a bit of my past stood before me with a sense of wisdom to share. Some parts revealed granted a sense of balance, and others a glimmer of personal value. Having pieces of your life re-presented to you with complete subjectivity is much more interesting than going back and reading in your own journal, diary, or blog for that matter. Reading your own autobiography may be emotionally masturbatory. Hearing the accounts for your from your friends, loved-ones, and other people actually present provides weight and relevance, no matter how subjective the recollection. Accept. Good or otherwise, accepting those subjective views on your personal history feeds the mortar holes in your structure. Putting them to use is important. They're just so relevent. Were you the pig, or did they share the role? Do you now have more information that allows certain heart-felt issues finally rest? If you're still asking "why"... they probably know. Once you know, even if it's horrible information. At least you know. Moving Forward. This is where I get less esotheric. :) In relationships, we're together because something was "right". Cherish those moments forever. They're great memories... and longing for them isn't healthy. No matter how much feel better about finally "knowing the answers to the questions" that have been bugging us, it doesn't make the "bad" times irrelevent. Finally knowing the "why" to those questions allows us to move forward in our own lives, and place 100% of our energy into creating new memories to cherish. Lesson to self... Love lives on... hold tight the model memories, and stay out of the way. peace- seanrox