Eating our own dust. Although my spirits remain high, I've felt a great strain on my sanity the past couple of years. I've tried to be my worst critic. This fortunately has helped me identify stuff before it becomes too serious. Sometimes I haven't. I feel good about today, except... my dark worldly path. Mostly, because I have no idea where that may be leading. Nor am I in a hurry to get there. For once, I'd like everything to be just a bit more simple and easy to swallow. I've gotten behind myself. My body and my own sanity will take a while to wade thru the dust clouds created by my mind, creativity and drive. When sick, you rest. When overwhelmed, you reorganize. Sometimes, I think about how cool it must be to have a mentor that could understand, nurture and give real-time advice. A friendly, helpful Ben Kenobi on my shoulder, if you will. I'm one guy. I'm first generation. I have flaws. peace- seanrox