LIFESTYLE OF CHANGE. Lifestyles are chosen and learned as our wants and needs change. We are all chameleons, and we settle where we are most comfortable. 2 QUESTIONS.... Do our shifting personalities determine the lifestyle? Or is our personality a product of our lifestyle? Stop. Read that again. ANSWER: PERSONALITY RULES? -- LA VIE BOHEMIA! After attending "Rent" and viewing "Moulin Rouge!" the other night, it occured to me that I'm quite possibly living some modern form of bohemian lifestyle, without me realizing. I've somehow eased into it over time without concious effort. Has the personality evolved the lifestyle? ANSWER: A PRODUCT OF LIFESTYLE & CIRCUMSTANCE? Everyone's story is different, but this is most probable for the majority of America. Humans desire to "fit in" and be comfortable, then continue on with the traditions of that lifestyle and pass it on to our children like some ancient messages to live by. Sometimes our wants and needs aren't satisfied by our lifestyle, and this is where our extraordinary moments that really form our personality take hold. Products of circumstance appear to be stable, but offer us interesting personalities to enjoy such as: the corporate salesman that takes a month off in the summer to smoke up and follow a hippie band across the country in his Lexus SUV; the nymphomaniac dental hygenist that holds group sex parties at her house once a month; and the accountant that spends his weekends as rockstar for a local band only making a fraction of the income he makes in one hour at the firm. Either way, our circumstances are forever in flux... minor bends and modulation from the norm. Although these extraordinary moments are just that, they just might have the largest impact on our personality and lifestyle. None of these theories is truth, per say. I made it all up. What do you think? peace- seanrox

RISE AGAIN. (listening to the kickass depeche mode tribute CD) Appropriate title for Easter weekend. Rising from the dead, rebirth, regeneration, reincarnation... whatever the method, Spring is again before us. One of the reasons I chose Atlanta in 1996/97 as opposed to some other places was the beauty of the city itself. I know of no other large American metro integrated with trees and other vegitation in this fashion. The skeleton trees are now budding small flowers of all colors, a sight to see. Call me a tree-hugger, if you will, but it visually defines the season. What do we hope for ourselves in this new season? Beauty of Possibility? Looking out my "sit-in" window from my kitchen into the blossoming treetop, mentally, I dive into the possibilities of the season. Everything new. Everything a possibility. Sadly, I'm beginning to think this train of thought is a dying art. So many people, including myself at times, lose themselves in levels of self-pity and forget that everyday presents us with opportunity, we just need to WANT to identify it. Conversation to conversation I share, people filled with a deep, longing need for happiness secure it all to a lofty and ornate dream. This dream is an awesome goal, but what are you doing today to inform yourself whether *this* is anything more than a "dream". Building a Bridge to your Dream. The most difficult part of it all -- imagining the bridge between today's reality and our dreams. We all need two tools: enablers and inspiration. Where do we find these tools? As with any other clueless blogger spouting bits of rather empty-ended philosophy, I don't know. That is, I don't know the answer for anyone else than myself. For myself, *this* is the journey... building the bridge. Enjoying this process everyday, and *not* tying my happiness to the dream. The process is the happiness, the goal is a possible bonus. Wise words realized. "I paint because I love the process of painting" --WTF? I designed a web site some years ago for a local fine neo-Fauvist painter, and she wanted this particular quote included in her site. We on the team, chuckled to ourselves... but now, I realize she had a valid point beyond anything I could imagine at the time. Valerie has a grand point... the process of working on a possible goal brings with it, the happiness of productive therapy. Overdue kudos to you, Valerie. Lesson to self... Continue to practice my belief that "getting there" is the goal. I enjoy driving on my vacations in order to experience all the small things that get me there. The goal isn't the mountains or the beach; instead the goal is enjoying the drive, the music from the CD Player, the light coming from the sunroof, the caffeinne-ridden beverages, the people with me, the gas station attendant in the middle of nowhere, and the feeling of accomplishment I feel along the way. peace seanrox

SWAMPED. Explains it. The MedSite has gone into overtime, "charity"-mode, but the tender *is* in hand. The camera will be coming home soon. *sudden sneeze attaaaaaack* (Whew.That was odd. Like 20 in a row of varying pain-levels.) Hold Everything. Friday, I should be able to move forward with the other projects as planned. Next week is a big one for my role at CJ. The new message board built with Microsoft .net technology will launch... as well as CJ's first new property. Stay-tuned. 2 Extra Tickets to Paradise Two killer shows in the couple weeks, here I sit, with extra tickets. Well... not really. TenaciousD on Monday... Cinny would be the best person to take, and she's checking to see if she can cash in those free AirTran tickets. *hope* ConcreteBlonde, April 15th... had to be someone that would actually enjoy the show. A fan. As of tonight, it's "penciled-in" a calendar. This will rock. peace- seanrox

SEANROXWERX THE WEEKEND.
I've nearly paid my dues. How much is one weekend worth? Well, fortunately, enough to get that damn camera you see below.

CoolNew Projects by Sunlight.
Oddly refreshing weekend though, and kick-start of things to come. I had had the blinds open, music blaring, and the french door to the deck open all weekend. Cool fresh air and sunlight, while I banged out a web design and HTML for a medical company [disclosed]. I'll share when it's launched. It's a sleek, clean design, information-driven and vaguely european sense of space with a tech-edge.

Several small projects will poke they're little heads up this next month, for which I am quite thankful. (I could use the additional funds.) Creatively, these new projects will be a grand departure from the dingy, decaying design of CJ. ... and for the first time since last February, I feel this rusted wheel of an economy might be actually beginning to crank again. (does a wheel crank? churn? turn?)
Upcoming Projects:

Medical Site

Branding/Site for Personal Asst.

Branding/Site for Hypnotherapy

Site for Private Children's Art Lessons

Branding/Site for Event Company

Branding/Site for Health Food Store

Branding/Site for my Original Art

Monthly Song for MulletMan

Hopefully, Songsmithing the hell out of my country song "WestTexasWind" with Chip Martin, songwriter extrordinaire. Sean and country songwriting? wtf, why not?

There a 10 o'clock in the AM, and a new property for CJ to build in the morning... rest well yee web-heads,

peace-
seanrox

IMMEDIATE PURCHASE
This'll actually be my first digital camera purchase other than a $79 PenCam last year (and holding AK's digicam ransom). Essential for my upcoming original art, a definate write-off, and will help me greatly working with muscians, and whatever else. ... this is the Nikon CoolPix5000, is what I'm considering now.

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QUICKIE BEFORE BED: Ironworks Sitting back for a moment, recognize what the day has brought. I can feel slow spreading growth, bit by bit. Although very little in fruition, the possibilities are available. 2005 will redeem it all, I believe. Until then, integrity, and kindness. peace and goodnight- seanrox

STAR WARS Episode 2: WAY EARLY REVIEW. Anakin is whiney, JarJar has a reason for existing, and Yoda kicks some ass. Ain't It Cool News Review

REVIEW: "RENT" PAYS. (listening various indie bands on mp3.com.) First thing. Atlanta's Fabulous Fox Theatre is visually stunning. If you haven't been there. Change that. I've been wanting to see this musical for quite some time, but didn't know the specifics about it. The specifics about "Rent". Pop-culture rules. Ever since I began seeing show's on London's WestEnd as a teenager, the contemporary-musical always captured me. "Rent" is no different. Riddled with modern late 90s pop-culture, humor and technology, "Rent" is now by far a better phenom than I'd ever known. Strong ensemble of well-developed NYC bohemic characters included: Roger, the struggling HIV+ songwriter; Mark, the filmmaker; Angel, the dragqueen; Maureen, performance artist; and Mimi, the hot S&M dancer with a drug problem. Each persona oozed with the epitome of its stereotype like we've seen in contemporary film in recent years, with Tarrintino and Avary and Aronofsky. Fav Parts - Mimi's cutely sexy, "Light My Candle" duet with Roger. She loses then finds her stash. - Maureen's "Over the Moon" performance art piece. - Mimi's erotic anthem, "Out Tonight". - "Tango Maureen" Roger and Maureen banter. - and any full ensemble piece ie "La Vie Boheme" The skinny... WRITING: * * * * * CHARACTERS: * * * * * STAGE USE: * * * * * MUSIC: * * * * * TECHNOLOGY: * * Would I see it again? YES! Lesson to self: Sound Guys Suck My ASS. The dialogue was well-written, and clever... gotta buy the CD. Unfortunately, the first act, I really struggled to hear the dialogue and lyrics over the music, the Fox is HUGE. Seems to be an on-going issue here in Atlanta. It's not like I had crappy seats... but next time, I'm going to attempt to buy seats on the lower tier. Just word of warning. peace- seanrox

ODE to the singer/songwriter "WHOA!" (listening: Epitonic Downtempo Radio) When writing a great song, every songwriter or composer builds tension to *that* magical moment when every listener is on edge... in anticipation to hear "the prolific message" that will forever change their life! At *that* moment in the song, the listener needs something to grasp, and remember. Unfortunately, too many times, *that* magic moment is followed by the vocalist singing the empty and dreaded word: "whoa". Anticlimactic, and disappointing. Here's what happened last night... Take them there, and aurally smack their collective forehead with a hook... Just chillin' and truly listening some of my favorite CDs, a friend of mine and I, were groovin' and picking up on the groove, heart, and soul of each song. Feeling the force of gravity in each creciendo and decreciendo, one particularly well composed song built, and built, and built the tension more and more... and the time for the chorus and release were right *there*... then... the singer sang, "whoa". CRASH! Ouch. As listeners, that song had us bound, gagged, and tied, and on a delightful ride, just to let us crash to the floor with schardes of "what could have been". At the peak of anticipation, the artist has a unique moment to define a moment, a thought, an exclamation of notoriety. This particular local, indie-band personally failed me at that moment, and I felt a bit abused and empty. Successful use "whoa"... Don't get me wrong, there are some artist/vocalists in mainstream music that have been quite successful with "whoa". Let's call them "whoa-miesters". In this group... LennyKravitz, King'sX' Doug Pinnick, Prince, and Eddie Vedder come to mind immediately. Lesson to self... only use whoa as part of another word. If I insist on using "whoa" myself... have it be part of another word.. such as "whoa-man". Otherwise, leave the use of "whoa" to the professionals... and Keanu Reeves, of course. peace- seanrox

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SMELL MY NEOSURREALISM ART. (listening to nothing, cuz my unemployed neighbor sleeps light) Last week or so, amidst this creative wave, I've had several conversations about my "upcoming" FineArt offering. The initial plan was to create several series of the art -- digitally. Then, first, allow hand-picked audience to select the work, choose a size, and purchase it. I may actually begin this endeavor on a commision basis. That is, initially create the piece upon desire for a flat fee. Custom Commisioned Pieces for My "Collectors" Rarely does an art collector get to experience a relationship with their piece of art at conception. I could offer a piece that mets the needs of the collector. After an interview, I'd determine the Size, Dimension, mood, and media-type [canvas, watercolor, vinyl, acetate... framed, stretched, inlayed ] for each piece. Custom art. I'd need to figure the RevenueModel exactly... but I think I have a model in my head pretty well figured out. (BTW, just stopped to purchase "neosurrealism.com"... why not?) Initial Custom Delivery Concepts: Fantasy Portraits... picture your most beautiful self in your key dream-like utopia. Ideal body? Visually live out a dream? Mood Portraits... consult/create a piece that is catered to a collector's particular space/room needs. Zodiac Portraits... customized series that includes encompasses the specific personality of the collector. These are my ideas... the commissioning would allow me to begin this endeavor sooner, rather than later due to capital issues. I'm excited... those first few commissions will get the "fine art" of their life. Interested? Email me if you'd like a great introductory price and begin your art collection. peace- seanrox

FOX CELEBRITY BOXING: "best TV since the launch of That70sShow" 13 MAR. 2002. Kick-Ass! That rocked so much harder than you'd believe. I don't watch boxing at all, but to see these celebs in motion, may change my attitude about watching people beat the crap out of each other. Two out of three of my "picks" came through... Vanilla Ice, brutha... you let me down. 4 Reasons why it kicked ass. ONE: out of the public eye. Aside from "where are they now?" type material, most these "celebs" have been out of the public's eye for some time. (and some have spent some time on CourtTV). We always like to see how people turned out. Especially child-actors. Hard to believe GregBrady is 47!!! TWO: not trained. These people aren't fighters... most smiled for living. Knock dem m*thuf*ckin' teeth out!!!! WHOOHOO! THREE: you don't know the payout or scripted end. hehe Whether the fights are fixed it doesn't matter. Did anyone have a $$$ deal where they had to last 3 rounds or else no payola? Who got paid the most? FOUR: Hey Vanilla Ice.... "Willis kicked your ass!!!" and now.. the key moments: GoldenPalace.com Tattoos. Billboards scrawled across the backs and shoulders of at least one celeb each fight. Were those the lesser paid celebs, therefore needed more sponsorship? Does this happen in other sports? Did FOX know about it? Does FOX own the casino... ahhhhh? Partridge Poops on Brady Do I need to explain this any further? Sheesh. STOMP!!! ... you could tell GregBrady wanted to win. VanilliaIce Creamed Hey, Rob Van Winkle... "Willis kicked your ass!!!" Paula gets pummeled and pounded. She lasted longer than i thought. As she was scheduled at the last minute, you could tell it was about the fun and money. Tonya slapped her back to the days of pounding the prez. Just plain funny. Each bout was a mixed metaphor of how varied a celeb's limelight can be. Thank you FOX. This show frickin' rocked the house and had me rolling for an hour. peace- seanrox BTW-- Fox, consider my suggestions for upcoming episodes of CelebBoxing: Chachi vs KarateKid DavidLeeRoth vs SammyHagar Valerie Bertinelli vs Laura Ingalls Rocky vs. Rambo Mr. Spock vs. Capt. Kirk HanSolo vs Lando David Copperfield vs Doug Henning LindBlair vs Daisy Duke ChristopherReeves vs StephenHawking

RAGE AGAINST MY SANITY. Seems like a very long time since I've been angry. Today I was. I believe I remember getting angry, even internally, quite a bit years ago, but got sick of being *that* guy. Not sure when it happened, but I just don't get outwardly angry all that often. Could be because I choose to spend quite a bit of time alone, and maximize the quality of time I spend with others. I kinda like it that way. :) Of what I have left... The bit of sanity still present in my mind was extremely strained today. Logic... please don't deny it. For God's sake, please don't be a dumbass and not realize that logically everything is affected by everything. I'm not talking about some kharmic action-reaction thing... simplicity in the things you do everyday. And, more importantly, don't deny logic. Lesson to self... Frankly, today, I'm in no mood. I'm know there's a lesson for myself on how to "work around" those dumbasses. Today, my message is... don't be a dumbass. peace- seanrox

REVEAL, ACCEPT, & MOVE FORWARD (listening to Spinner.com, GothicChannel) Seems like this past week has been another episode of "sean, this is *your* life!!!". For kicks, let me check the stars to see if it was anticipated...hehe...brb Week of Mar. 4, 2002. ...there has been so much movement in your life of late that it has unsettled you, so you can't go back to being the way you were, but at the same time you don't quite know where you want to be either. Whatever happens, see this as a valuable stepping-stone to achieving more stability and homing in on the deeper desires of your soul. Not too shabby for a bunch of star freaks. Reveal. At every turn this week, a bit of my past stood before me with a sense of wisdom to share. Some parts revealed granted a sense of balance, and others a glimmer of personal value. Having pieces of your life re-presented to you with complete subjectivity is much more interesting than going back and reading in your own journal, diary, or blog for that matter. Reading your own autobiography may be emotionally masturbatory. Hearing the accounts for your from your friends, loved-ones, and other people actually present provides weight and relevance, no matter how subjective the recollection. Accept. Good or otherwise, accepting those subjective views on your personal history feeds the mortar holes in your structure. Putting them to use is important. They're just so relevent. Were you the pig, or did they share the role? Do you now have more information that allows certain heart-felt issues finally rest? If you're still asking "why"... they probably know. Once you know, even if it's horrible information. At least you know. Moving Forward. This is where I get less esotheric. :) In relationships, we're together because something was "right". Cherish those moments forever. They're great memories... and longing for them isn't healthy. No matter how much feel better about finally "knowing the answers to the questions" that have been bugging us, it doesn't make the "bad" times irrelevent. Finally knowing the "why" to those questions allows us to move forward in our own lives, and place 100% of our energy into creating new memories to cherish. Lesson to self... Love lives on... hold tight the model memories, and stay out of the way. peace- seanrox

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THE HISTORYBLURRED. Today, I was awaken by a bit of history. It was like opening up a book or a newspaper and reading about a story about yourself, only you don't remember the event at all! Appears we all have stored perception of past-events that are an altered reality of our own lives. WHAT IF... Imagine how different it would be to go back and see reality from a third person perception! Howdy to ya, and welcome to your freedom, Space. One-day reality may return, but today, I rest. peace- seanrox

MULLETMAN (redneck alter-ego) NEW SONG!!! ***ADULT CONTENT ON THE MULLETMAN SITE***** The original Redneck Rocker, MulletMan, has released a new song... a funny, yet naughty parody of Poison's "Every Rose Has Its Thorn". GO LISTEN. peace- seanrox

MY VAMP PARODY. enjoy- seanrox